Sometimes I wonder if we are doing the right thing. I don’t know if it is fear of the unknown or anxiety. The closer we get to actually heading out on this great adventure the more I find myself wrestling with the same questions I did a year ago. Should we be doing this? Will this really help our family? Can I really handle all of the change, movement and uncertainty?
Yes, yes and yes! I have grown so much in the past 12 months. I have grown in my faith and truly learning to trust God. I never thought that I would be okay in such a small space, taking apart our washing machine, or emptying black tanks. I have been working on my mindset, focusing on the positives in most situations. I can see growth in my children, slowly becoming more independent...well some of them. Emotions are spilling out all over the place as we are all being stretched as we learn to communicate better. It’s been good, but man, it’s also been hard.
With all of the recent events in the schools, I find myself thinking I never want my kids to return to public schools. I want to protect my babies forever, but I know that is not possible. While they are with me, I will love them, I will teach them about Jesus and His great love for them and hopefully I can teach them to love others too. I feel this journey will make me a more intentional mom; one that teaches my kids to be considerate, and helps my kids see and appreciate the differences in people, be responsible and most importantly be a friend, a good friend.
I have no idea where this path will take us. I don’t know how we are going to change as a result of living such a radically different life. But, I do hope our family grows closer together, I hope that we enjoy God’s wonderful creation, I hope that we create memories that are talked about for years to come, and that we learn to see the silver lining when the sky is full of clouds.
UPDATE: We haven't heard anymore scratching in the walls, so If we had a visitor, it is no longer with us. Praise the Lord!